Have you ever felt like you're really on the verge on crying, you feel so empty in the stomach, a little chill surrounds you with the goosebumps, you bite onto your lips, you try not to speak because you know another word will cause those tears to start forming within the white corners of your eyes... and you'll be like, "not now, please. don't cry now, keep on smiling. don't think about it. some people are not worth it." But you just couldn't help it but to let those tears run down your cheeks. It hurts.

I always try to convince myself that I'm over you. I tell myself that there is no more love left in my heart. The thing is often sometimes, the more someone tries to convince themselves, the more they will realize how much they still and always will love that person that they are trying to forget.. Of course I will meet new people and fall in love again. Of course I'll hate you sometimes and seek new ways to hurt you. But there's always a history between us that won't let me forget you no matter how much it hurts. :( So many memories, so many inside jokes, so many stupid fights. Everything crazy seems to happen when I'm with you. /: