You know that feeling when you're on the verge of giving up but you don't want to? I've gotten to a point where I don't want to try anymore. It's like the more I try, the more I screw up. The more I train, the more I'm "deproving". I dont know whats happening to me rn but its rly bringing me down. Everything came crashing down all at once and im rly tired of standing up. im sick of picking up all the shit thats thrown at me. i honestly do not know what have i done to deserve all these but certain things are not within my control and i cant do anything about it.