794th day... i guess im done with all the missing and cryings. 27 months. 27 months wasted on a heartless guy. how stupid can i get? ahah. i hope this feeling die off, really. im so sick of waiting and waiting, knowing you will never come back. ugh. it's just so fruastrating.
"its a constant battle. a war between forgetting and remembering."
yes yes, it is. i constantly fight this battle every night in my head. almost every night i lie in my bed wondering whether to hold on or let go. some days i told myself to let it go, some days i remind myself of how i'll probably fail. and thn i keep on thinking and thinking, thn comes the flashback, followed by the tears and heartache. but yknow, this slowly became a daily routine and you get used to it unknowingly. so you slowly get immuned to the pain and slowly it wouldnt hurt so much but it still kills you inside out when you think about these.