Sunday, March 26, 2017

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dont you hate it when you're kind enough to give people a second chance or maybe even a third one and they just take advantage of it bc they know they'll always get another one?

honestly, i've came to a point in life where i get so sick of chasing people and trying to fix all the meaningless shit. its not that i dont need them neither am i giving up on them. i just simply feel like i've done too much and i've tried my best. if my best wasnt enough to make them stay thn theres probably nothing else i can do. tbh i really want them in my life but im not strong enough to face another fight. its feeling more and more like an uphill battle and i dont have the strength anymore. yknow, i wasnt made for this..

people often think im strong enough to face everything all by myself but no. i also need someone by myside to listen to all my problems. just bc im used to showing my "strong" side to people, they think that i'll always be ok, no matter what. they think that im gna be standing strong no matter what they say. but let me tell you, they are soooo wrong. i have this thing called feelings too. i feel, yknow. i feel the anger, the pain, frustration and every single thing the others do. so what makes them think that im gna be fine? 

by far, the most valuable lesson i've learned is to never love anybody else more than how much you love yourself. this is one of the biggest mistake one could ever make. along the way, i've also learned that you should nevert trust anybody too much or let anybody into your world too easily. so in the end, i've learned that to prevent yourself from getting hurt and used, you've got to put up a wall, a boundary. 

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