A lot of things changed recently. Nothing is going the way I want it to, problems after problems, all my problems piling up. Been rather confused with myself recently. Dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.. Got my feelings all mixed up. Feeling damn fuck up, no joke . Clique falling apart, people leaving, friends changing... Why izit always the same shit that happens to me? Even the only person that really understand me well changed.. She totally changed into someone i don't know anymore . Maybe it's me that doesn't truly know her from the start uh.. Ugh. Been so long since I feel so fuckedup. Why must things change just when I finally thought that my life is gonna change , and become slightly better? Really sick of every single thing that's happening in my life. I hope someday, someone would just come along and bring me away from all these misery. I really had enough of this ridiculous life of mine. Feel so fuckedup and lost.. confused.. Have you ever felt like everything is meaningless and you don't feel like living anymore? Have you ever feel that if you told someone how you truly feel, they will ignore you, start avoiding you and ending up as stranger? Have you ever felt that fear? Or or maybe if you just be yourself, just being you, people will think that you're not good enough? This is how I'm feeling everyday. Fuck this shit. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. This feeling is killing me. I wish I know how to make it go away..
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