L i f e .

Life...? HAHAHA. What can I say about it? All I really know about life is that it was NEVER fair, and I don't understand why. People said, be positive, and everything would be okay. But do they know what I've been through? Have they ever walked in my shoes? They don't understand how it feels, to have so many fucking problems piling up at a time. I got so fucking sick of all these problems that I'm getting speechless. All I feel is pain. Yes, really just pain. Pain have totally conquered me. It took over all my emotion. I feel pain even when I smile, or even when I laugh. Crap much? Pain, pain and still pain. I really wanna know how it feels like to be happy.. really really happy.. Some people told me, destroy what destroys you . So that the pain would stop . But often the problems is I'll end up destroying myself . It was my mind thats destroying me , and if I were to destroy the thing that destroys me, I'll end up destroying myself. Somehow I'll end up destroyed in anyway.. But sometimes it really sound like a great idea to die.. Someday when there is nothing left for me to hold on, I'll probably just end this shitty life. I don't even think that people would realise that I'm gone . Because no one will give a damn about me. They don't care. Nobody would ever care. They are just curious. Everybody is just curious about what happened, they don't care. Nobody will ever care about what's happening in my life. And I have to accept the fact that at the end of the day, I'm gonna be on my own. Because people come and go. They come into my life and leave the moment they have enough fun. Nobody have ever thought of how I'll feel.. they don't know how much it hurts , to have people going in and out of your life , all the time, as and when they like it . They come into my life, and make it seem as if they are gonna stay for long. So when I finally start to get used to having them in my life, they decides to leave. This hurts. Many people would say, "it's okay" "you're gonna be fine after a sleep" but it's not. It's not okay, and I'm not gonna be fine. They just don't fucking understand it . Of course they think they do understand, but... owell ~

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